The Crucible of Darkness

by Julia Smith on December 17, 2011

Winter on the Elwha by Julia Smith

T’is the season of darkness in the northern hemisphere. It is also a time in which many of the world’s religions, regardless of hemisphere, prepare to celebrate a festival of lights.  Presumably this tradition has its roots in the cultural response to darkness, that which challenges our safe and secure human existence in the face of mysterious threats or the threat and challenges of mystery…

Modern secular society isn’t much for the darkness either.  Writer and eco-activist Bill McKibbon characterizes the dark to be one of the three endangered species of human experience in modern times – the other two are silence and solitude. The prevailing attitude tends to privilege the light—whether the actual light of day, the artificial lighting of the night, or the light of knowledge, progress etc.—viewing it as a kind of deliverance from that which would otherwise jeopardize our sense of order, security, identity, or wellbeing. Ironically, it seems that despite all of the light penetrating dark spaces in modern times, our world is still confronted with some form of collective shadow wherever we turn.

By contrast, wisdom traditions view turning toward the darkness or shadow as central to spiritual practice. The journey toward freedom or enlightenment is less a conquest of the darkness than a metabolizing, an embrace, a realization of the non-duality of what we encounter both in darkness and light, their interpenetration in the larger whole of existence. What happens when we allow an embrace of the darkness, turn toward the shadow sides of ourselves as persons and leaders?

An answer can be discovered by actually visiting the dark, literally speaking. Consider taking time to sit or lie on the floor in a room in your home that is absent of light in any form (note that you may need to unplug something to make this possible!). Or just take a moment to pause before turning on the lights when you enter your house or a room when it is dark. What you discover in the process may not surprise you, but it may give you a new perspective in relation to some of the questions and challenges you are facing just now.

Darkness brings us closer in to ourselves, closer to our vulnerability as well as our resourcefulness.  We can’t rely on the same things in darkness that we do in the light.  There are ways of knowing that become important in the darkness while other ways of knowing seem irrelevant. Our experience here is a solitary one, allowing the socially driven notions and concerns about who we think we are to fall away. This provides an opportunity to see what else may be there.

Give yourself to the direct, embodied experience of the dark as an unknown territory that has something to reveal to you. Notice how you feel in your body in the darkness. What concerns and instincts arise or fall away?  What experience of yourself, your being-ness comes to the fore under the cloak of darkness?

The pace of things slows in the dark. Nature cycles all living things through periods of darkness – what does that allow for?  What is the wisdom in that? Certain things are lifted from us in the dark; demands, expectations fall away in the space of this quiet, solitary place. The urgency we feel in the daylight naturally loses some of its hold when darkness descends. At the same time, there may be new anxieties or fears that arise, ones that are tied to the deeper core of our being. The invitation is to examine the discomfort with curiosity, or even wonder.

As you accustom yourself to being in the darkness, bring to mind something you have been feeling “in the dark about” in your life.  Some question, or situation, a cross roads or transition point. Breathe the question through you in the darkness, feel it in your body. How you are with the situation right now?  What would it be like to be in the dark with this question as if that is exactly where you need to be? Let the question spread itself out in the darkness – there is nothing to hem it in here.

Darkness invites us into not knowing. There is so much we can’t know there. In fact, to survive in the darkness, one has to embrace the not knowing, respect it, use it as a platform for curiosity, discernment, guidance. There is no room for judging what we don’t know when we’re in the dark. The steps we can take can only really be considered one at a time. Questions, then, can grow roots in the conditions of stillness and quiet that darkness provides.  

Let your question grow roots in this still place – how many layers beneath the ground does it need to go before it finds the nourishment it needs in the very center of your being? Breathe through the layers, trust the darkness to provide you with discernment about what is important and not important to see about your situation right now…..

These are some of the gifts to our leadership that turning toward the darkness brings: the room not to know; a stillness and solitude that gives immediacy and directness to our experience and allows us to see the emptiness in the constructions we create; the lifting of urgency so that our questions can breathe and go deeper; access to our instinctual, intuitive ways of knowing; being with our vulnerability as deep intimacy. Imagine what it would be like if, collectively, we took on such an embrace…

Jung writes: “when the soul embraces and accepts suffering, the pain reveals itself as the birth pangs of a new inner being.”

And Rilke offers “if only we could arrange our lives in accordance with the principle that tells us that we must always trust in the difficult, then what now appears to us to be alien will become our most intimate and trusted experience.”

The womb of darkness is ultimately a transformative crucible, at some moment giving way to the luminous, inner light of Awareness, of Being itself. This then is what the celebrations are about, the festivals of light.  They celebrate an inner transfiguration of the darkness more than its escape.

May this be your experience during this season and in the coming of the New Year.

Step into your greater service to bring about a more beautiful, equitable and sustainable future for humanity. GTC Starts April, 2012 in the U.S. and September, 2012 in Australia and New Zealand. Learn more.

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#Occupy Inquiry

by Julia Smith on November 7, 2011

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“We stand at a critical moment in Earth’s history, a time when humanity must choose its future. As the world becomes increasingly interdependent and fragile, the future at once holds great peril and great promise…. We must join together to bring forth a sustainable global society founded on a respect for nature, universal human rights, economic justice, and a culture of peace. Towards this end, it is imperative that we, the peoples of the Earth, declare our responsibility to one another, to the greater community of life, and to future generations.” – The Earth Charter, 2000

What is the #Occupy Wall Street Movement to you? What could it mean for our times? These are questions to consider as we seek to live and lead consciously in stewardship of the planet and her inhabitants. In this article we offer a mosaic of perspectives and questions to stimulate shared inquiry.

#OWS signals a call to a higher moral order in business, economics and politics – a demand for accountability to the well being of the general populace, the environment and the world. Early in the movement, integral commentators characterized it as a clash of perspectives where those who champion post-modern values (green) were rising in opposition to the excesses of modernity (orange) in the form of unregulated capitalism and corporate-driven politics. This placard, defining #OWS in terms of what it is seeking to become instead of what it is reacting against, underlines that its own identity is evolving and maturing.

The following questions are offered to prompt reflection from first, second and third person perspectives: that is, a personal view, a view in relation to others, and a view from the larger unfolding of life.

We invite you to share your thinking in the comment space that follows this post so that all of our readers can consider and grow with #Occupy together.


First Person Inquiry

  • What is #Occupy Wall Street to me?
  • How am I and those I love affected by the current economic and environmental crisis?
  • In what ways am I dependent on/embedded in the systems perpetuating this crisis?
  • How do I begin to untangle myself from these systems and ways of being?
  • What do I say yes to? What do I need to say no to? What actions do I know I can take that I have not yet done?

Second Person Inquiry

We are not alone in our awakening. It is extraordinary to witness even at some distance what is coalescing in this movement – the communities being generated in the occupy sites, the refinement of their decision-making, the impact of their actions. And then there are the networks of individuals and groups online, organizing to support those on the ground with encouraging perspectives, questions, skill building, and an expanding virtual community in conversation. We are seeing the awakening of a wider swath of the populace to what ‘cultural creatives’ such as Joanna Macy, the authors of the Earth Charter, and others have been advocating for decades.

“…let’s take a look at what is in this moment. There is a deep and broad grounding going on, connecting many locations and involving thousands of people who are organizing into working groups to address dozens of issues that require attention if this burst of energy is destined to be more than meteoric. And while direct actions are being contemplated everywhere and there is brilliance emerging with respect to strategic advance, the reality is also that winter is approaching.

This will be our Valley Forge, a time of forming networks and alliances, deepening relationships, appealing to broader audiences, framing the conversation, articulating a new narrative…

But it is not yet time to bring forth a manifesto. It is time to recognize that holding the Commons, tending the inner structures and process, creating micro-economies that work for all will be the seeds of a living manifesto that need not be articulated in words or demands, but which can stand as a statement of who WE are.” Gary Horowitz http://www.occupycafe.org/

  • Where do you feel the invitation in the above words?
  • In what ways and with whom are you engaged in what is happening?
  • David Korten writes: “Whoever controls the prosperity, security, and meaning stories that define the mainstream culture, controls the society.” (http://livingeconomiesforum.org/the-great-turning-in-bullet-points):  What are the new stories we need to tell ourselves, in order to inspire and inform our actions toward a shift in paradigm?
  • How shall we redefine success, wealth, productivity, growth within this narrative?
  • How might we approach those whose points of view differ from our own in order to invite and ignite broader and deeper participation?

Third Person Inquiry

Taking our examination of #OWS to the ‘20,000 foot level’, consider that what is occurring, what we are all participants in – Wall Street executives, occupiers, onlookers, all, is the inevitable movement of earth and her inhabitants through patterns of evolutionary unfolding.

Historians William Strauss and Neil Howe describe American history as a series of recurring 80-100 year cycles. Each cycle has involved four “turnings” – a High, an Awakening, an Unraveling and a Crisis. At the time their book The Fourth Turning was published in 1997, Strauss and Howe estimated that the US was midway through an Unraveling and roughly a decade from Crisis. “Around the year 2005, a sudden spark will catalyze a Crisis mood. Remnants of the old social order will disintegrate. Political and economic trust will implode. Real hardship will beset the land, with severe distress that could involve questions of class, race, nation, and empire.”

Broader still, from the cosmological vision of the late James Hillman, what is occurring across the globe may be viewed as a rising up of Anima Mundi herself, to say ‘No More!’ and to ignite the hearts and souls of people on the street and elsewhere, sparking the impulse to speak and act on behalf of the Soul of the world.

  • What are the most pressing concerns we need to address at this time?
  • What other perspectives would be useful to help us understand what is going on in the US and across the globe?
  • What is good about capitalism? How can we preserve its value to the whole while deconstructing the practices that lead to its corruption?
  • Where in our local communities are there changes taking place, new prototypes forming that give manifestation to the forms of community governance, alternative currency, sustainable economics we seek to grow?

Contribute to the Conversation

#OWS is a process, an ongoing and evolving conversation, the coalescing of a new collective consciousness in the US and across the globe. It is a manifestation of a larger shift within the earth community toward a new social, political and economic order. The outcome is not guaranteed, but more than ever before, it can be deeply influenced and shaped by our consciousness, our choices and our collective actions.

As conscious leaders, how shall we respond? What is ours to do?

Tell us what you think in the space below… We’d love to hear your thoughts, your experience, the way in which this movement is moving through you.

Step into your greater service to bring about a more beautiful, equitable and sustainable future for humanity. GTC Starts April, 2012 in the U.S. and September, 2012 in Australia and New Zealand. Learn more.

Photo credit: Katie Teague

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Evolving Together

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Can you feel the urge to offer more?
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Our ungiven gifts clench as stress.
You and I are love’s means.
This moment is our offering.
We will die fully given,
Or we will die ungiven,
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For quite some time, there’s been conjecture and deep [...]

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As leaders we often see conflict on the horizon. In fact, leadership is invariably defined in terms of conflict: the tension that arises between present reality – things as they are – and a desired future – things as they might be. It doesn’t stop there. Leadership encounters many other forms of conflict – [...]

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How do we live and lead in these times of extraordinary uncertainty? The answer may not only surprise you, but liberate you.
A recent gathering of integral practitioners and leaders, Engaging The Future, created by GTC graduate, Tom Curren, and his partner Allison Conte, looked at how to effectively encounter and lead through the extraordinary breakdowns [...]

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The Spiritual Core of Leadership

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Does leadership have a spiritual core? According to a new research study of developing ethical leaders, the answer is yes. If fact this evolutionary spiritual core may have everything to do with leadership. While modern perspectives have sought to divorce spirituality from the earthly realms, we see that, as we develop our consciousness, the [...]

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